Friday
2002.10.11.
-The Tale of An Amphibian God And Many Many Snow Hoess-

Song of the Moment:
Utada Hikaru<> "Simple and Clean"



Gods, this song has been stuck in my head for days! I've been using it to keep time at my job. It takes 5 mins. to get through the entire song, so if I keep singing it...If only they'd let me WEAR my headphones...So yeah...the video game got me addicted to this song, and then I had to get "Hikari" which is the Japanese version. Fun.

Well obviously I started working Monday and haven't had time to update. Work has been...interesting...My boss is a frog lover, my grandmother is annoying as all hell, the John guy is scary. The fun part is though that I think the place likes to fuck with my head. Like I'll be thinking something outragious in my fit of bordome, and suddenly something like it will happen. Like my first day, Ryan was telling me about all his frogs and lizards, and I was thinking about how much the kid reminds me of a lizard (his actions, facial expressions...) sometimes, and I was thinking how he must be some kind of amphibian god cause he has over like 100 something frogs. And then he gets up on the drill press to plug it in from the huge plug that hangs down and right as he was standing there a plug in each hand, getting ready to plug them in this big flash of blue light comes from behind him. I had to laugh. One of them "And the gods said let there be power!" things. Turns out they do welding behind the big red curtain on the other side of the room and that's where the light was coming from, but we'll get to that later...Then the next day we were at a stand still waiting for supplies that were a week behind schedual or something and still hadn't come in yet, so I was reduced to peeling stickers for 3 hours straight, so I was thinking about how I was being eternally damn to peeling stickers and just as I was thinking that, this guy walks by wrapped in big heavy chains, and I just laughed and screamed "Oh my god! You've been damned too haven't you!" ^__^ Then the maintanence guy comes in. He plugs in one of the drill presses and sparks fly out the back. And then he looks at me and goes "Uh...did that just...light up or something?" and I was like yah. So he goes to Ryan and says "Dude...I think I blew a fuse...or something..." What a genius huh? Anyway, yesterday I was classified as a "floater". This is when you are at a stand still so they have you go around to whoever needs you and do different jobs in different appartments. So yeah...Ryan went off to find my mom to see if I could work in QC again (cause apparently I'm "so smart" according to the big boss) While he's doing that my grandma decides that instead of waiting for him to come back, she's gonna walk me over to John (the extreamly scary guy who always talks dirty and shit) so she walks me behind the red curtain and I'm just thinking "Oh gods...I'm being asscorted into hell by the devil herself..." Luckly my mom found me within like 10 minutes and I booked it out of there, not soon enough to avoid the big conversation about biting though....*cry*...anyway when I finally got to come back to Sherpa I must have really smiling cause Ryan goes "What? What are you so happy about? What is it?" and I just said "ANYWHERE BUT BEHIND THE RED CURTAIN!" John scares me...he's the one who scream teenage rape the day I came in to fill out an application. He doesn't like the fact that I won't talk to him, he always says how I'm too quiet, I must be plotting to kill someone. And he says the stupidest shit when he thinks I can't hear him. Like the otherday I had my head phones on when I was working QC and I had the volume up all the way, and he thought I couldn't hear him so he said something to my mom about me and vampires and then goes "Oh but don't worry they don't drink VIRGIN blood." At that point I was so pissed that I was ready to turn around and say "Oh yeah...shows what you know..." but I didn't cause my mom was there. Yeah...so I won't talk to John.

So, you'd think after you reached a certain age,say 40 or so, you wouldn't have the immature urge to carve "Nick is a Homo" into the stock shelves...that was interesting. And then I found that someone took a sharpie and wrote really big across table top "$$$$SHERPA RULES!$$$$". And at lunch people are always throwing their garbage at other people and everyone picks on each other. Yes, even though I work with people who are at least middle age, work is alot like highschool...

I fell asleep at my machine yesterday, and they were all laughing and staring at me as if I were cute or something...I didn't get much sleep Wednesday night, but it was ok cause I got to see Dani! She came over after I got home from work and braught me books and stuff, and we went to the comic book store and got coconut pockey and Ramu and manga. Then we went to McDonalds, then back here to watch DVDs. She didn't go home till 12:30 and I didn't get to bed until 3 cause I still had to do chores and my laundry and take a shower. When I woke up for work, my hair was still wet...so yeah I was tired yesterday, but I'd do it again. We had alot of catching up to do, cause I hadn't seen Dani in like 3 weeks or so. ^__^; It sucks that we work opposite shifts. Plus she works at star still (so do I, but only weekends) so she's always at work or asleep. Not that I can say I've done anything different...

Speaking of Star, they're giving me another $.50 raise starting November 1st. I just got a $.50 raise August 1st. And I haven't even been working there for a year yet. I started there in late May I think. *shrugs* guess they really don't want me to leave.

So I went to the DMV for the first time today. I had to get a state ID. Very scary. I swear the place is one of the loop holes of hell...but it's still better then being behind the red curtain. (which is funny since it's red, and when you're behind it, it's kinda dark 'cept for the red glow and the creepy light) The DMV smells funny, and I hate that voice that says "Now serving...". I was #200, so my parents left me there. And even though I told them to go, I soon found my fear setting in. I'm working on it though, really. I'm not as bad as I used to be...really...Anyway, I finally my state Id. And I look scary. Like GRRR scary. And the picture taker guy liked my jewlery. Wow. I spent the hour sitting in the chair waiting for my number to be called staring at this skinny lil bishie. ^__^ I think that helped keep my mind off the whole being alone thing. And then I realized the guy at the window next to him kept putting his hand down his pants. Not just in his pocket mind you, DOWN down his pants. I wanted to cry, the kid was very obviously playing with himself at the window of the DMV...in the middle of a public place. And then he takes his hand back out and fills out the papers, then put the hand back...I put my headphones on and tried to consintrate only on the bishie. But I think it was too late to avoid any mental scarring...

Oh and I bet right now you're still asking yourself the question "What the #$%&@ are 'Snow Hoess'". It's a story my mom told me about last year, when they were running the snow shoe line. See they have those rubber sticker/decal things, and the big ones say "Sherpa Snow Shoes". Well there was a mistake in the fancy ass sticker things and instead they read "Sherpa Snow Hoess". So I've taken to refering to them as just that, snow hoess. You know the best part of this job is that no one (well with the exception of John and my grandmother) will fuck with me cause they're all affraid of my mom. It's funny, my mom's boss is a real prick and he always comes in yelling at her and throwing things, and he came over while I was helping out in QC and started yelling and then took one look at me, shut up acted all nice and walked away. He acts real nice to me. I can get away with pretty much anything right now. I said I'm gonna strap a pair of snow shoes to my feet and dance around screaming "Look at me Howie I'm dancing! I'm danicing Howie! I'm a snow princess! *GIGGLE*" Perhapse if he really pisses me off, I will do that. I work with some scary people, like the guy who looks like a psychotically deranged santa claus. He'll stare with this big grin on his face. And you don't know if he's starring at you or what. His eyes scare me. And then there's the guy who's eyes float, so when he's talking to you, one eye is on you and the other is rolling upward and back into his head. And then there are the people who believe in "the policy". That's our code name for wearing your clothes literally till they disinigrate from you're body. I don't think I've ever seen so many holes in one shirt before. It's real gross. They don't change or wash their clothes. They wear the same thing everyday until it falls of, at which point they will change into something else. They think just cause they're gonna get dirty anyway, they shouldn't bother washing their clothes or changing them. Ewww...just the thought is disturbing ne? If only you saw... Then there's the guy who looks like Duke Nukem and he has a "Mini Me" guy who looks just like him. Yes many many weirdos...

And I have books to read. Dani wants to get me hooked on Wen Spencer. So she borrowed me two of those books and "Exquisite Corpse" and a Christopher Moore book called "Blood Sucking Fiends" Fun. Now hopefully I will haven enough time to even look at the inside cover.

"Wish I could prove I love you
But does that mean I have to walk on water?
When we are older you will understand
It's enough when I say so
And maybe somethings are that simple...
Hold me
Whatever lies beyond this morning
Is a little later on
Regardless of warnings
The future doesn't scare me at all
Nothing's like before."

Friday
2002.10.04.
-Shopping Spree!-

Song of the Moment:
LUNA SEA<> "Forever and Ever"

Wahahaha I got Kingdom of Hearts! Yes yes yes. I only played it for about 30 mins so far, it took that long to reach the title screen. Then I decided to be nice and let my brother play...which he is still doing. I tried to get rid of him. Nothing worked. Not even turning on my music (that everyone around here so lovingly refers to as "jap crap") and singing at the top of my lungs. No, not even the killer duo of me and Taro-chan psychoticly screaming could make him budge. My poor futon...So I am being kinder yet by allowing this invasion of my sanctuary to continue on. But I won't turn down the music, cause for some reason he feels the need to constantly talk back to the game. (Note to self: Never buy Rikki any games that speak). Anyway, it seems like a good game so far. Hell it must be good if he's still playing it. Generally a game can't hold Rikki's attention for more then an hour tops. This has been going on for quite some time now...

I also got the last volume of Steel Angel Kurumi. Woohoo! They took the cover of the first one and made it all dark and evil for this cover. Yeah, I didn't even know it was out yet, but I went to the game spot and there it was, the only copy. So of course I had to buy it. The ending wasn't the best, I mean it could have been better, but it was still good. I hope they decide to go on with the dubbing of the next season... Best buy (and sun coast, and sam goody) didn't have Dragon half in though. So that has to wait. Instead I decided on NGE-Death:Rebirth. It wasn't all that interesting considering it's just a summary and the first half of EOE, but even knowing that I baught it A)Just to have it on DVD instead of watching the crappy computer one and B)For the in-depth character profiles and whatnot and above all the AUDIO COMMENTARY!. And it's double sided! Didn't watch it yet, but if it's anything like EOE was, it will be worth the nineteen bucks.

That's what I like about Best Buy, their DVDs are always at least $10 cheaper then anywhere else. Like I got Kurumi there for $15 and everywhere else it's $30. So if for nothing else, Best Buy IS a good place to get anime DVDs. Hm...what else...OH! I got the job! I start Monday. Now they will leave me be! They tired to tell me I failed the personality test. My mom thought it would be a fun joke to say "Oh you failed the personality test. You have no personality." Apparently when she told my dad I failed the test he freaked out and said "HOW THE HELL CAN YOU FAIL A PERSONALITY TEST!" He says when she said it to me I must have been freaking out too. I just couldn't take her seriously, cause really there is no way to fail that...unless you checked off everything, or nothing at all. But that would just prove you had a personality, a REAL stupid one.

Last night, part of my dream was that I accidentily ruined Dani's copy of "Drawing Blood". And I was freaking out, cause she gave me a death threat that if I hurt the book something bad would happen to me. But the more I tried to fix it, the worse it got. Ooops. But you know what, Tobi was there! Tobias you've come back! Wahaha, now get over here bitch, I have a leash and I'm gonna use it! Sing Taro-chan! Scream!

And Keesha has done it again, escaped death a thrid time! Her will is truely admirable...Oh I forgot to tell everyone about what I found yesterday. I was browsing Japanese goth clothing companys on the web because Japanese Gothic clothing kicks major ass. It's like a mixture of insane japanese and evil anime characters and crazy Jrockers. It gives me ideas for my character designs. I could never buy any of it cause I don't know how to ordr from Japanese catalogs (plus it's probably really expensive), so instead I pick all the clothes I like and draw them on Kali. So yeah. I found one style I really liked, Japanese Punk Goth. It was like clothing for vampires on acid. And then there it was. Some japanese goth company (Tikimanime I think) is using the lil Bucky Badger (the wisconsin football mascot) with the W and everything. Scary. There's some Japanese company using the badger, the mascot of wrongness! Nooo! It's infecting japan...is nothing sacred? Must it all become Wrong?...oh hold on my foot fell asleep...

"Close your eyes, open your mind, going back for a moment of time
To those days and take back the eternity and hope you felt for sure
Time changes all and strives to change me, too
If we fight, it hurts If we surrender, we go under
And many people are lost and hurt
They let go of their most precious thing
Even if it breaks me to pieces
I want to keep believing, keep feeling till it ceases
The eternity deep in my heart
So, remember
That body, soul, mind, blood, tears, dreams, love, pain, and joy
Cause, they're all so precious, forever & ever "

Thursday
2002.10.03.
-Embracing Death, Yet again...-

Song of the Moment:
Rob Zombie<> "Feel So Numb"

I wish I could feel numb right now. I am currently suffering from a bad case of stomach pains. Lingering stomach pains, that seem to be reflecting Keesha's (one of our last 3 remaining pet ferrets) drawn out battle with death. In fact they both started at the same time. I must say this though, Keesha has one hell of a will to live. This is the third time now that she's looked like she was gonna die. Earlier I would have said I was sure this time is it, but I went upstairs after talking to Melissa and held her in my arms for an hour or so, and she actually seems to be doing better. She can lift her head again and move her feet, and she isn't cold and limp anymore with her tounge hanging out of her mouth and her harsh breathing stopped. So I don't know what to say. Perhapse she has 9 lives. Either way, she made it through the night, now only time will tell. Kinda morbid with the description and all...I know.

In other news, I went in for a job interveiw today. I think it went well. It wasn't much of an interview. And I'll probably actually be working there come next week. No more playing the guessing game. And I got my pay check from my other job! Got to hang out in the car stalking the mail man, waiting for him to come to the house. So now I can get Kingdom of Hearts ^__^. I woulda had it already, but we went to a different bank to cash it, and since it was a thrid party check and I depostited more money then my parents had in their account to begin with, they've frozen the account for 3 days or something. So I have to wait. Oh well. On the upside, my parents finally decided that they will take me to get my own account so that this doesn't happen again. So yah. Financial fun or something.

I still feel like crap. I felt a lil better earlier, thinking about Tobias running around in cat ears and leopard print boxers* on a leash. (long story...beleive me you don't want to know).

"Where do I run?
What have I done?
I feel so good
I feel so numb, yeah"

Tuesday
2002.09.30.
-Cut My Strings-

Song of the Moment:
LUNA SEA<> "Search For Reason"

Well interestingly enough, I've found yet another hidden link to Melissa, something else we might possibly have in common. That's good. You know I think I've gotten to know Melissa better in the last month or so than I have in the 5 years that I've known her. Guess we never spent alot of time talking until now (now making the point that basically all we can do is talk). And I'm not a freak! Woohoo. Well I am, but not for THAT reason. That's reasuring, I think. I feel like I'm missing an arm. But both my arms are here and fully functional, yes they are.

And we talked religion. I've decided if I ever do decide I need a religion, I will most definatly go Wiccan. Yes, and Melissa agrees that it would probably be the best path for me. But I don't think I need a religion right now. Lately I feel like I've been searching for myself, or at least realizing my own existance, my feelings. Sounds weird huh? I can't really explain. Don't make me try to, I'll just confuse you more. Kali is the last person on earth that you'd want trying to explain something to you. Yes, yes she is....Ok maybe second to last.

In other local news, they're stringing me along as far as if I've got that job or not. First they said indefinatly, then they said I would start yesterday, now they say they're not sure and arn't even attempting to give a straight answer. I don't really mind, I mean sure it's a pain in the ass cause I already cancled most of my October schedual for Star, but I rather enjoy lounging around, having the time to not worry about when I have to work. It's pretty much been alone time though, what with everyone gone at school and Dani working two jobs (*sob*) So yeah. But my mom is pissed about it cause apparently alot of people at work keep bugging her about when I'm coming in. And she can't do anything but say go talk to the guy who's suposed to hire me, and yet they keep bugging her anyway. Apparently the Ryan guy took the time to clean the machine and table and stuff where I'll be working...scarry...my mom said when she heard that she said "You did what!?!" I laugh. ^__^ Oh Melissa they say you'd like him cause apparently this kid owns over 100 frogs he keeps in many tanks around his house or apartment or whatever. All colorful and expensive and stuff. Frogs.
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So yah. Interesting huh? I added more quiz results to yesterdays entry, but I don't think they got posted with yesterday. I think later I will finish resolving a few plot conflicts and go on writting AE. I was even thinking about writting out Elements of Eternity. Even if it would just be in story form. Hm...well we'll see. Who knows. Maybe I just need another dose of NGE goodness...or maybe some SODA! Soda, where have you gone? Dear, dear sweet coke-a-cola. Or even some of that lemonade soda (^__^) or a nice COLD pepsi, or or or...even Mountain Dew. Funny thing is I don't like Mountain Dew, but whenever someone gives me one, it's gone within 5 minutes. Maybe Dew is just one of those sodas that you have to chug. Maybe this is just one of those many wonders of the universe...perhapse I will never know...

Right now I think I want a bubble bath. Don't know why. I just do. Maybe it's because the mysteries of the Mountain Dew have boggled my brain so that now it needs a good cleaning. Kisama Moutain Dew! I want my pay check now! *whine* I could be playing Kingdom of Hearts right now and watching endless hours of anime on DVD. NEED MONEY! *Just a few more days, just a few more days* and AI (the art institute of chicago illinois) is taunting me again. I want to go there...but I have no money and I hate chicago and there are no dorms and and and...and someone might as well rip both my arms out of their sockets if I were to do so! Geeze...I'm not insane....yes, yes I am...

Last night I had a dream where I healed someone. I could feel their pain as I took it in, obsorbing it deep down into my heart, until it was gone completely. Yet it was such a wonderful feeling. I don't remember who it was, but I do remember them not wanting to be anywhere near me. They kept screaming something like "You angelic ghost!" or something. But they were afraid of me. Dunno why, I couldn't intentionally hurt anyone...

"All I ever wanted
A little clue
All I ever wanted
The truth"

Monday
2002.09.30.
-"Last Day of Freedom"-

Song of the Moment:
Poe<> "Fly Away"

Wahaha! I just watched EOE again, but this time with the audio commentary from the dubbers. At first I was thinking "Oh well this will be boring, but maybe it'll make more sense of the movie...", but it was actually funny. They were even commenting on the logos before the movie. Then talking about how if you played the DVD backwards at one point the truck seems to be coming alive. And they kept telling everyone to try the Pink Floyd thing with EOE instead of the Wizard of Oz and tell them how it turns out. The one guy kept going "It's all about sex sex sex sex" and the chick was talking about the giant ghostly Rei fingering Maya. Then they wanted to resurect Freud, and make him watch the movie and then question Anno. They kept saying he'd have endless books of notes. And these people couldn't stop joking about everything and laughing and then going "oh god...god...god..." Then they tried to explain how after you've watched the movie so many times you have to laugh as sort of a self defense mechanism. They they kept pointing out parts where you should freeze frame so you could see all the hidden gore. I laughed when they pointed out that the letters of kanjii in Shinji's mind trip were actually exerpts of the death threats that Anno got after after finishing the series. No joking. He got lots and lots of death threats from fans who were pissed off about the tv ending. So the movie was sorta his way of flipping the fans off. They said the movie itself was like everything the fans asked for, gone horribly wrong. WAHAHAHA! But seriously after watching with the commentary, I realized how truely amazing this movie is. The symbolism and background research that went into the movie are mind blowing. Like every lil thing is significant. It just blows your mind... I'd like to watch the mind trip in surround sound. They said all the voices are separated so it sounds like they're circling you. ^__^ fun. That is one movie that definatly fucks with the mind. It's just one big brilliant artistic mind fuck! (whaahaha they even said it with those words). Too much fun...That's an all time fav.

Added more stuff to the side bar thing. Took some quizes. Unfortunatly, with all the stuff on the side, I can only keep like one or two entries up at a time before I run out of memory.


You aren't sure where you came from. Perhaps your sire did an embrace and run. Or maybe your sire was an outcast himself. Either way, your powers are unique and really don't belong to any clan...or maybe a little from each. Because you of these circumstances, you aren't really sure where you belong. You tend to wander and do a bit of soul searching in your eternal life. Maybe some day...you have a while after all

What Vampire Clan Do You Belong To?




The Ever-Wounded Chiron. I am the wound that disfigures you. With my compassion all wounds are healed.
What Planet Are You From?
this quiz was made by The Autist Formerly Known As Tim


You're Ken.
You're just the cute blushing and innocent average boy next-door. Despite owning a pair of razor sharp Wolverine-like claws you seem to feel guilty over what you do at your job (ya know, that...night job you're trying to convince yourself you *need* to be at) due to your extremely pure conscience! When you're not working in the shop, or running night-time errands you're most likely outside playing soccer, or teaching little kids to play... or even helping out a nun!
Which member of Weiß are *you*? Take the quiz!


Here's a quiz I found on a site that apparently found it on another site...or something. Sorry I don't know the original sorce...

01. Who was the first J-rock Band you heard?: LUNA SEA! WAI! Ryuichi is sooo dramatic...
02. Who's the most recent J-rock Band you've heard?: Plastic Tree
03. Who's your favorite J-rock Band?: LUNA SEA
04. Name 5 other Bands you Like: Plastic Tree, Gackt, Dir En Grey, X Japan, Penicillin...
06. Are you a fangirl/boy?: Yes, yes I am.
07. If yes, of Who?: Uh...hehehe...well, Ryuichi Kawamura, Ryutaro, Gackt, Masa, Die, Kaworu, Taka, Chisato, Hakuei, Miyabi...
08. Do you cosplay?: So far only as anime characters for halloween.
09. Who?: Um Usagi disquised as Tuxedo Karmen, and Shampoo
10. Do you like Dir en grey?: Yeah!
11. Are you a Toshiya fangirl?: No...
12. How about Kaoru?: Yeah!
13. Die?: Hell YEAH!
14. Kyo?: He's ok...he needs to stop drooling...
15. Shinya?: He has a baby face. *poke* Kawaii, but not a fan girl...
16. What's your favorite Deg song?: [KR]Cube
17. Do you like visual bands or non-visual bands?: No preferance, though, I'm in it for the music mostly. As long as the visual-ness doesn't take away from the quality, then go for it.
18. What's the first J-rock song you heard?: LUNA SEA's "Moon"
19. What's the last song you heard?: Plastic Tree's "Sink"
20. Do you buy J-rock magazines?: I would if I could find them...
21. What's your favorite?: uh, well I have scans from Fool's Mate
22. Have you ever been to any J-rock concerts?: NO Y.Y But I would DIED to have been at LS's Last Live.
23. Which ones?: None...
24. What would you do if you saw any J-rocker walking down the street in your town?: KYAH!!! *GLOMP* *Giggle Giggle*
25. Which three Jrockers are you most in love with?: Ryuichi, Masa, Ryutaro (Die, Gackt)
26. Which three Jrockers would you most love to meet in person (Dead or alive)?: Tough question...Ryuichi ^__^, and Ryutaro, and Gackt-sama cause he's hillarious.
27. What are the three things you would like to say to/ask them?: Can I come over and eat some curry?, How's Masa?, Can I come live with you?
28. Which three Jrockers can you relate to most?: Ryutaro, Masa, Gackt
29. Which three Jrock songs do you constantly replay?: PT's "Monophobia", LS's "Until the Day I Die", and DEG's "Embryo"
30. Do you currently have a Jrocker computer background?: Yes, yes I do. It's a LS one.
31. Which Jrocker would you most like to get fashion/makeup advice from?:Miyabi
32. Do you read Jrock fan fiction?: Yeah, LS and PT mostly. I love how people portray Taro-chan ^__^
33. What is your favorite Jrocker related dream?: Ok I had this dream where my friend Melissa was hosting a talk show for me (it was my show or something, but i couldn't be there) and the guests were: Inoran (from LUNA SEA), Ryutaro (from Plastic Tree) and Gackt. Melissa doesn't like JRock so she was asking all these real obscene questions, and no one was really answering her, and Ryutaro pulls out a box of Kraft Macoroni and Cheese and starts pounding it on the table so that the dried noodles make the happy shaking bouncy sound which made him smile. And Inoran was eyeing up the box and Gackt was futzing with his chair. (gackt was to the left, taro-chan was in the middle and Ino was on the right). Then Taro-chan opens the box and starts eatting the raw noodles and all of a sudden Ino's lil hand comes sneaking past his nose and plunges into the box, swiftly stealing some noodles and he starts crunching on them and acting like nothing happened, looking the other way. Then the two of them started battling over the box and that caught Gackt's attention and he was hungry so he was begging (gesturing) for them to give him some, but they wouldnt. Eventually he managed to get his hands on the cheese packet and was licking his fingers and sticking them in and licking up the cheese powder while Taro-chan and Ino continued crunching the noodles. Melissa got real mad at the three of them (she was talking the whole time this was happening and finally realized no one was paying attention).
34. How many Jrock MP3s do you have?: One second please...585 currently on my computer.
35. And, finally, if you could sleep with any three Jrockers, who would they be?: Ryuichi, Gackt, Ryutaro


Depressing and suicidal, there's a good chance you might even take drugs or suffer from alcoholism. Even if you don't, you still live in your own little dream world, and most likely have quite a vivid imagination. In any case, you're still rather soothing, in your own bizarre little way. You're also rather angsty.

take the "which neglected jrock band are you?" test. or something.



DisorderRating
Paranoid: Moderate
Schizoid: Moderate
Schizotypal: Very High
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Low
Histrionic: Moderate
Narcissistic: Low
Avoidant: Very High
Dependent: Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive: Moderate

-- Click Here To Take The Test --



which song describes you the best?

You are Miya, the more serious type. You enjoy your alcohol when you can get it, and some people ould think you're a vampire when they first meet you. You also love to wear black, and write music and poetry.
Which MUCC member are you? Find out here!


Should I be done now? This is just too much fun....

"It makes sense that it should hurt in this way
That my heart should break
And my hands should shake
As if to say...
Sure it don't matter
Except in the most important way
As if to say...
Fly away"




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