2002.09.08.
-In the city of Wrongliness-
Song of the Moment:
LUNA SEA <> "I For You"
Hm...guess I have to catch up. Sorry about that. I was gone half of Thursday,all of Friday, and most of Saturday. Ok so lets see...
Thursday...Dani took the bus here. It took a few hours. But she braught me anime to watch (the last volume of Lain and the second volume of Ceres), and manga (Peach Girl 6 and Love Hina 5) and cookies, she found the cookies! Dani-chan you spoil me. -^__^-
Oh and books. I borrowed "Lost Souls" and "Worm Wood". I realized I now actually have time to sit down and read since school isn't taking up my day. Hm...then we went to the mall. I baught myself a white sparkely dragon plushie, and a grumpy bear patch (which I plan on sewing to a shirt) and a bedtime bear keychain, because I had a $5 gift card for spencers that was going to expire the day after. Then we walked to Mitchel at like 9 at night and went swinging in the dark. When we got back we watched anime and I passed out half way through Ceres. Dani says she turned away from the computer to find me glomping her Kitty. And for the record, Kitty and I have resolved our diffences and I take back ever calling her a bear. Some time later I awoke from an odd dream (of the several I can recall from that night) where I had talked a man out of shooting a lil girl. I must have woken Dani up as well, apon which I commented on the fact that she was keeping a promise she had made to me in the dream before that one. She responed with a "well duh". I didn't get the chance to ask her how she knew, if I had had the conversation with her in my sleep, and for that fact if the things she had said were actually her words. Hm...
Friday...We woke up around 9 something. Ok well the alarm was set for 8, but I kept beating the shit out of it, and in agreement we went back to sleep. Then I packed the 'ol back pack full of blankets and we hit the road. We were dropped off at the badger bus stop at 9:30, waiting for the 10:05 to Madison. It was then I had decided that the middle of the busy free way off ramp thingy was no place for a nap. (the bus stop was one of those big glass boxes on a lil island surrouned by road on all three sides, and the roads were busy and noisy) So I sat half in a daze as Dani read her book. It was one of the books with the scary horse. 2 buses showed up before ours, both were going to Waukesha, and the bus driver of the second one seemed pretty pissed, but her bus was empty. Our bus was late, but it finally came and we got on and I tried to resume napping, which didn't work because the creepy bleach blonde guy decided he was gonna pop up and talk to Dani. He went on and on about some stupid story he was writting about unicorns and the army all because Dani was reading her book. And he never once blinked his big buggy psychotic blue eyes. At that point I was greatful for getting the window seat. He wouldn't go away so Danielle decided to strike up a conversation with me and shortly afterwards he took the hint and left (as if her trying to ignore him, then telling him he was creeping her out wasn't enough...). So we talked about exploding and imploding and he moved up 3 more seats and blocked in another victum, who I felt sorry for because there was no escape for her on account of she had been sitting in the window seat by herself and he decided to plop his ass down aside her and continued blabbing. We later learned that he was originally sitting about five seats behind us. What a freak....Anyway, then I got a lil nap in while Dani started writting about the cookie boy, and soon after we reached the Madison Memorial Union, where we were greeted by Melissa. Then we went back to her dorm, and then out to lunch. I was in charge of finding the table while the two of them waited for our food. So I sat there, and sat there, and giggled at the girly walker, and gawked at the blonde non-bathroom who dropped something on the floor and spent about 3 minutes bent over trying to pick it up. (oh by the way I was calling him the non-bathroom because Melissa had pointed to the bathroom and said "There's the bathroom" and when I looked over there he had walked in the way so she was pointing at him) Then I realized I was being watched by a group of guys at the next table who were debating asking me to take their survey that they were creating about sex. The one kept staring at me, while the other told him to go ask me and another elbowed him in the side and laughed and suggested more questions. So I decided to make evil "I'm gonna bite you" faces. One by one the five of them dissapeared, and then I lacked entertainment. But Dani and Melissa finally came back.
After lunch we went to Bob's copy shop, and then wandered around. There were no half naked guys on Bascom Hill....sadness. But there was squirle boy. Anyway, we wandered around, then came back to the dorm. And we got to ride the elevator several times. I couldn't stop laughing everytime I got in it, which was a bit bad because it was always real crowded. But then there was the hot Japanese water boy -^____^- Ah...kakoii...I couldn't stop giggling and after he left I couldn't help but scream "I want a hot japanese water boy!" Later I drew a chibi anime version of him on the board on Melissa's door. Of course that was after another nap which I woke up from and could talk O_o, it was kinda creepy. I must have been real tired that day. I think it was the heat. Then we got dinner and did more wandering. There are alot of religious people around there.... Then we came back and bummed around for awhile. Then attempted to sleep. I woke up from another nightmare to find that I had pinned Melissa into her sleeping bag and she was plotting Danielle's murder. Apparently I'd told her in my sleep that I was baking cookies for Dani, and that this time I promised not to get blood in them. I remember that from my dream. Then I decided not to sleep and we stayed up and talked. I didn't get back to sleep until Danielle started snoring again. Then I was like "yes...I can sleep now..." That floor was uncomfortable....
In the morning I woke up and Melissa's roommate had come back. Dani was hopping to scare the shit out of her. Melissa said she doesn't think it worked. Dani did manage to scare the shit out of the guy in the hall way though when he walked by and she was sitting in the door way with a pair of siccors.
Anyway, we left Madison at around 2:40 and headed back for home. On our way back to the union, the half naked guys were waltzing down the street. That made up for the fact that they weren't on the hill I guess. I don't remember the bus leaving the depo, I fell asleep before that. It was a good sleep, and I was all dopey and happy when I woke up to Dani pressing the coke bottle to my lips and telling me to drink it and wake up. I was relieved to learn that I hadn't drooled on her, or started talking in my sleep on the crowded bus. We got back around four, and went out to lunch at mcDonalds. Then wandered around town for the rest of the day, went to the park, then to the comic book store, and finally made it home by like nine. It was a good day. And I had more japanese soda! *Smack*Pop*fizz*FIZZ*bubble*giggle* ^__^.
Which finally brings us to today. I woke up this morning from a dream that I was using Melissa's big stuffed turtle to fly to japan on. Apon waking up I found I didn't feel too well though, a feeling that has only gotten progressivly worse as the day went on. I'm feeling much better now though. I slept most of the day, and when I was awake I didn't get out of bed. I managed to finish reading LH and Chobits and I started reading Lost Souls, but 4 pages into it I got dizzy and passed out again. My room is a mess. Among the towels on the floor are my blankets and pillows, a 24 pack of Pepsi,some books,a box of goldfish and a can of pringles, a huge college dictionary propped up and opened to ill-use - imbrication, my dog chain, my glasses, the PS2 controller, my alarm clock where it had landed still upside down, a leaky luke warm heating pad, my clothes, my knee brace, my shoes,a bunch of pencils, and my back pack. Oh I talked my dad into letting me buy the tablet! Did I mention I fried my scanner...I accidentally plugged it in with the wrong wire and 2 seconds later *POP* it started smoking, and it wreaked....poor thing. It had searved me well. But the tablet will be good, yes yes it will. So I'll probably get that tomorow, then I'll have about fifty bucks to live on for the rest of the month. Can I do it?
I think I'm gonna apply for a job down at Owl Imports, (since I can't keep living off my current job and I didn't get the job at the comicbook store *sob*) I mean how much will I really have to do there? I can't be too busy. Plus I love music boxes ^__^. Oh odd side note from yesterday, if Danielle ever came to my house with a shirt that said "I scared your guardian" I'd cry. (inside joke).
Fun quotage from the Onion:
"Keeping Kids Safe
The nation has been hit with a rash of child abductions. What are fedaral officals recommending to reduce the risk?
->Instruct child to take different dark alley home from school every day
->Twice a year, hold abduction drill in which you throw your unsuspecting child into trunk of your car
->Have children that are as ugly as possible
->Attach your child to a large, unwieldy object, such as an old toilet seat, with the words"Bathroom Key" written on it
->Start emotionally distancing yourself from your child now to lessen the separation trauma of abduction later
->Warn your children of the dangers of abduction every night as you tuck them into bed
->Keep your children safely locked in basement, feeding them by throwing food down heating duct
->Avoid taking children to The Olive Garden; The maze of tables and artifical plants is an abductor's playground
->Give birth to multiple offspring to hedge your bets
->Be sure to take your children to work on Take Your Children To Work Or They'll Be Abducted Day"
Wasn't that fun. It reminds me of my own paranoid childhood...only I was the one reminding myself of the evils of the world...constantly....kami-sama....maybe I am just a lil like Taro-chan....
FUN FACTS ABOUT KALI: #1 As a child Kali would read the "Warning" lable of her blankets and bed tent before going to sleep every nite, then contimplate how she would make it out of the tented top bunk in case of a fire before burning alive.
"SAGITTARIUS:You understand that Alaska's economy has been hit hard by the poor salmon season, but you don't see how hunting you will improve matters."
Well that was fun. Zodiac stuff, astrology, all fun. I took quizes for that stuff...like that my astro match is Aquarius and uh what was the other one? Hm...maybe I should go around asking people if their an Aquarius and then if they say yes throw myself at them and see how they handle it.
FUN FACTS ABOUT KALI: #2 Not only have all Kali's boyfriend's names started with a 'J', they were all born in the month of March.
Yes and if that doesn't scare you...well let me just say, it scares me...alot...no I don't purposly date guys who's name starts with J and have a birthday in March, it just sorta happens...¬_¬ I think it's all just one huge sick cosmic joke.
My music is back on account of the tv is pissing me off. Should I rant? Ok, now don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that I'm anti-america or anti-untiedliness, but on the topic of 9-11, quite frankly I've had enough. I mean they're all talking about how they're gonna commemerate it or whatever and do all this stuff, but quite frankly they haven't stopped talking about it since it happened. It's like having to relive it every single day. I mean if I had to pick the worse day of my entire life and relive it everyday, kami-sama I'd be insane. Oooh Oooh speaking of Kami-sama, guess what's playing right now ^__^ VANILLA! Wahahaaha!
Dance Gackun! Dance DAMNIT DANCE! *drool* I wanna dance! And I will....just not where anyone will see me. Ah the simple pleasures of having your own room. You can blast your foreign music without complaints (at least that's the case when you live in your parent's basement), you can sing as loud as you want, and you can dance all stupid like! And speaking of which guess what the next song on the play list is! Billy Idol's "Dancing with myself" ^-^
FUN FACTS ABOUT KALI: #3 In the 6th grade, Kali had a short lived crush on Billy Idol. Now she can't help but laugh everytime she sees him(or even that guy on buffy...you know the blonde vampire-licious one...uh Spike! Yeah!)
Isn't this fun? I think I'll keep posting these. I think I've figured out a trick to the knee. It seems like everytime I'm overly tired, and then I try to be all movey movey the knee wants to pop out of place...I felt so pathetic when it happened when we were up in Madison. But I didn't fall on the ground this time, like I did when me and Dani went to the comic book store that one time. I really hate it, cause I don't want to be a burden on people. But it is nice to know that they care about me. ^__^
For the longest time, I had thought no one would ever care about me...for the most part I've been alone, and certain incidents lead to the fact that I have a hard time trusting and opening up to people. Which often leave people wondering why I am still the way I am. I've been asked why, if I've been hurt so much by others, do I still care about them even when they don't give a shit for me. Truth is I don't know. I want to believe in the good in everyone. Perhapse that's a weakness of mine.
"Kokoro kara kimi ni tsutaetai
Kizutsukisugita kedo mada maniau yo
Kokoro kara kimi wo aishiteru
Kimi ni furu itami wo nugutteagetai subete
I for You"
2002.09.04.
-Special Guest Stars?-
Song of the Moment:
LUNA SEA <> "Rosier"
Does anyone know it's like 90 degrees in here? Admittedly it's probably just MY room, seeing as how there's some sort of air circulation throughout the rest of the house. Sometimes I wish this basement had windows...
Oh puu, the song ended. Ha but now it's "We're running with the shadows of the night..." ^__^ good 80's music, always makes me happy, nostalgicly happy. Hey I got a panda, look at the panda! Look look! Ok, a lil to your right, now down, do you see him? He says "Hi". So I needed a new counter, and since Taro-chan is my "cover model" for this blog, I figured he could have a panda, since he loves 'em so much. -^__^- . I'm in the middle of trying to update my site, but I can't decide on the subject matter for my next layout. So far it's between Ryuichi and the fertiler. As much as I enjoy AS illustrations, I'm trying to avoid them since the last one featured Kira and Setsuna. I can always use them again later, and I most definatly will. Maybe I could draw the layout this time....hm...
Speaking of drawing, out of bordom I've taken to drawing on my walls with a rather large piece of chalk. No one has noticed yet, but then again no one has been in my room for days. .. Across one wall starting in the corner and working down are japanese lyrics and random sentences of thoughts that were in my head at the time. Then on the wall next to it there's a kawaii* head shot of Tobias (the non-anime version). It's covered by the door (when the door is open) so that if I have to erase everything do to parental order, I can leave him there. And on the other side of my Squall poster is a 4 foot picture of Kali in her goddess outfit. It also turned out pretty good. Lately I can't draw too well on paper though (which makes me mad when I look at the wall and they're there all neat looking). Maybe I'm just having an off week. If I had a camera right now, I'd take a picture of the wall so that you could see the adorable Tobias ^.^ Tobi-chan! Becky says she thinks he might have popped up in one of her dreams now! Hahaha.
I got a hair cut...but I don't really like it....And I had another dream about my imaginary band. Ok explaination, back in like sophmor year I had a dream that I was in this band called DeAdLy CaNdY. The band consisted of about four or five members, of which I was the guitarist. Anyway, so in this dream this time I could actually tell who the vocalist was, and it was Dani! And we were shooting a music video for some song. I don't remember the lyrics, but one scene that stuck out in my head was there were these two children and one runs up to the other and places lil hard candies in the other's hand. Then it kinda morphed into me and Dani and we were doing the same thing as the children only instead of candy we had some very colorful pills. The lyrics had something to do with growing up and the curuption of youth. At any rate it was cool and yet creepy.
I added more quiz results. And I found the only search engine that has ever found my site (because you usually have to pay to get listed on a search engine). But this engine gives you your trafic and viewer ratings and reviews! Alexa <-- if you go there and type in "Obstruction of Sanity" my site should be first on the list, and you can review it! Unfortunatly all the reviews so fare have been pretty much responding to the first reviewer who was talking about Tripod.
"By the time I knew it, I was born
Reason or quest, not being told
What do I do? What should I take?
Words "God only knows" won't work for me."
2002.09.03.
-And the Cycle Begins Again-
Song of the Moment:
Incubus <> "Warning"
Last night I had 2 dreams that I can remember. The first being that I took a road trip with Melissa to go visit Danielle. (backwards ne?) Anyway it a real long trip, and we abandoned the car and started walking once we reached this cemetary. It was a cemetary for small children, and it stretched like 5 miles down the road, and it was dark out and real creepy.
Anyway so we were almost there, when we came to a fork in the road. I remember reading the name "Sonoma" on the street sign. Then Melissa decided we were turning around. That made me mad, but I followed her anyway cause I didn't want to be left in the middle of nowhere. alone, at like midnight. So we got back to the car and started driving backwards on the crowded freeway. And I thought for sure we were gonna die.
The second dream I remember was that I went back to school. They were trying a new system with the lockers, where not only did the lockers have numbers, each also had it's own name. Mine was named the "wheel of fortune" and my friend Stacy's, who's locker was 2 down from mine, was named "Alexander". While I was busy gripping over the fact that I was the only person in the school who's locker was named after a tarot card, this guy was talking to Stacy about how his name was Alexander too (which we both knew was a lie, we'd known him for years and his name was really Mark) and Cavender was making a connection between him and Stacy's locker and then walked away, laughing hysterically about the "family rod". There were three folding chairs in my locker, and I was told I couldn't take them out. So I put my bandana thing on my head and decided to be all rebelious and go upstairs to my first class. On the way I met Melissa, who had the same class. She had baughten a digital camera, and wasn't sure how to use it, but she was trying to take pictures of everyone. Then I was watching AC DC in someone's locker when Josh snuck up on my and I screamed "I have a plastic knife and I'm not afraid to use it" and then I was chasing him around with the knife. He asked why I had a plastic knife and I told him it was because I wasn't alowed to have anything else. Then Melissa tried to take pictures of him.
They were both odd dreams. Made no sense,and for some reason I woke up singing Billy Idol's "Rock the Craddel of Love".
As for today, Rikki went back to school. And Melissa and Becky went to their first day of classes in college. Congrats guys (or something). I won't be doing that till spring. I uh...slept today. Yes. Then I made myself a rice block. Yes. Then I watched "Happy Days". Yes. Then I tried to draw something. Yes. Then I turned on my computer. Yes. Then I had to restart my computer because my LUNA SEA cd made it lock. Yes. Then I emailed my Gackt group. Yes. Then I said to myself "Oh I'll update the blog!". Yes. I'm so amazing.
"She woke in the morning.
She knew that her life had passed her by
She called out a warning.
Don't ever let life pass you by."
2002.09.02.
-Endless Rain-
Song of the Moment:
Radio Head <> "Talk Show Host"
It's a good thing the week ended. The main file for my blog, the one that holds the enteries, ran out of memory ^__^;. Any way...now all back enteries can be found in the Archives section.
Stacy came over, she braught some weird anime movie with her, and we watched it. That was pretty much it. Oh and Dani called. We are going to see Melissa on friday ^__^. Get to take a bus up to Madison. Yes that's right, I'm facing my fear of the bus just to visit Melissa. And Dani found the cookies! I get cookies! Woohoo. I have to wait though.
Right now I wreak of syrup, ewwwww. I got stuck cleaning the mess left in the kitchen from this morning's lil cleaning spree. Luckily I slept through that....but it kinda made me mad that they pulled all the old food out of the fridge and then had enough nerve to stop there and leave it all on the kitchen table all day to get warm and make the kitchen stink. It was a huge mess, and when I said something about it I got told it was MY fault for not being there to clean it up. My fault! I was asleep! No one told me, it's not even my job! Ah well. I didn't press the issue, because I know I'll never win. And besides, right after I said that it wasn't nice to leave it all there, I got yelled at for simply putting a water bottle back in the freezer when it was leaky. (AKA the "oh no you found a fault in what I did so now I have to cover it up by yelling at you for something piddly and stupid" technique) But on the whole, I'm getting along with my parents rather well. It's just that right now I feel grimmy, but I should really wait for the storm to calm down before jumping in a tub of water ne?
It's been raining on and off all day. Like drizzle, storm, drizzle, storm....well at least Melissa should be happy, she got the storm she wanted. I don't mind the weather. It was a combination of the weather and the fact that it's a holiday that made it impossible to go anywhere today. Everything was closed >_<. Tomorrow my brother goes back to school, and you know what that means don't 'cha? NO RIKKI FOR THE ENTIRE AFTERNOON! Yes, that's right afternoons of freedom from the fatness. No one to get in my way, no one to eat my food, no one to wake me up by doing laundry at insane hours of the morning (I live in the basement so the washer and dryer are both right outside my inecessible back door, which by the way, the cat managed to rip the door knob off of...). My new favorite candle is almost gone. And the storm is almost over. Yay I can go soak in the tub!
"I want to...
I want to be someone else or I'll explode
Floating apon the surface for the birds
The birds...
The birds..."
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